“so is this your first, second, third or fourth home?”

Bueno, vacaciones al final! Ahora ya te puedo dedicar un poco mas de atencion 😀

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Today I have been listening to the same songs in my head= I believe+rock radio+unfinished business

…Sometimes I forget about the sentimental power that music has…How listening to a song can take you somewhere else, to some other place, or time…Good times or bad times, the epic moments, the sad moment, the dramatic moments…

…sSometimes we identify song with things or events…

I have been thinking as well of  the term “Home”…what’s home? is i a place? is it a group of people? can you have different homes?and if so which one takes priority?…and where do you go when you mean you want to go home?…

It confuses me…because well, I need to know where’s my home for when i hear:

“Country roads, take me home, to the place I belong…”

(I’m pretty sure it’s not West Virginia…)

so…I am on holidays…and I guess I am home, at least in one of them…

<<Lilly>>

1m “Stoopid”

People sometimes do stupid things…People sometimes say stupid things…

People sometimes feel stupid…

I do, every now and then, like today for instance…When you realise that a compilation of stupid facts have managed to fuck up your day/week…Especially when you realise that if you would think more in these things you could probably avoid them…

Also, some people sometimes make us feel stupid…

Like when you can’t predict someone, and you noticed you just can’t take that out of your mind because it’s shocking, that makes you feel like an idiot…

Knowing things and not doing anything about it because you are just “paralitica mental” makes you feel like a total bimbo(which by the way it’s not the point)

Sometimes I wish all that attitude I usually have to do things, “repris”, ziszas…whatever, will come to me in the right moment…and not 3 hours later when I can’t really do anything about it, apart from looking like an annoying, pedantic idiot…

Ok…I learn the hard way, but I WILL keep this in mind…

NeVer AgAiN

Lilly

Up-side-down (english)

I understand (me thinks) that we are humans, and therefore we are subjugated to changes in our ideas and mentarilty. We can find ourselves doing one thing and, just one minute later,the same thing won’t make sense, at all…It won’t mean a thing any longer. And that makes you question everything, absolutely EVERY SINGLE THING, you do…Since you wake up in the morning until you got to sleep, because your eyes are begging for mercy and threatening with not open ever again. And then, everything gets reduced to doubts, and questions that give you headache…

What do you eat, and why?Why do you wear those clothes, or why do you have that hairstyle?Do you use make up, and why?Why do you take one path and not another?What entertains you, what makes you happy?What makes you sad?And why so?…And you will go through those issues the whhooollleeee day. And, suddenly, one morning you will go to a lecture just to discover that you cannot understand half of the notes you have taken. It’s not because English is not your first language, or because it’s dam early in the morning and you had a horrible night, oh no. You don’t understand the concepts, the situations and circumstances, nor why those things are in that way…Even worse, you won’t understand why you are studying sucha  thing. So you run to the faculty office and beg for a module change…Module change to something that would not usually be of your interest and !SURPRISE, SURPRISE! after the first lecture you realise you actually like it and it’s interesting…(not so interesting that you would like to spend the rest of your life studying so, but at least it’s better than the other option)…And, then you ask yourself…What is wrong with me?

By the way, the following thing you would do is to drop the dissertation in which you had already started to work…Because if doesn’t interest you any more, or at least not in that way. Your mind would be open explore brand new worlds (well, not that brand or new, it is history anyways…) that are fantactic and easy-going…But still you don’t feel confident enough, and you don’t still get why…Has this ever happened to you?

 

Yeah…it is disastrous. It makes you feel awful, insecure and unable to make a decission…it even makes you think that you are making the wrong moves…It makes you cry and sigh…

 

Nonetheless…ah, it’s not soo bad! You would discover that you arent the only one that feels in that wasy. There are more like you that suffer in silence as they are to scared or don’t have the capacity to change their minds, and say “hell-to-the-no”. But you have make an impression with you emotional mood that, by the way, it’s going to make them feel much better with themselves (thinking about it as long-term effect) and they would be able to enjoy life again, at least for a little while, without getting lost in unknown worlds of disturbing thoughts.And you would feel better knowing that you have done something for someone else, and that’s great, especially if it makes you feel more comfortable and confident at the same time.

Anyways, it is recommendable to ask a source of wisdom and experience about the subject. This being is going to tell you that, in fact, you aren’t doing anything wrong. That it is normal yo feel like that, yo question things and suffer changes in your tastes. In addition, he would even say that due to those issues you are taken right path this time…And all this becaus eyou have a name-code R. individual in your life. THANKS!!

So, dear all, buy yourselves an R. person, they would just provide you happiness and comfort.

Ergo today, these are my greetings to all the R. individuals on earth, and also my message to all those people that have been freed from the ancient traps of tricky knowledge…

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…And if you have the courage or any sort of compalint…Go and Sue Me…

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…It seems that my reivindicative-rebelleion is not going that bad…is it??

 

<Looking towards new horizons>>

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Entiendo y comprendo ( o eso creo) que somos humanos, y los cambios de mentalidad e ideas ocurren. No obstante, a veces son de lo mas inesperado. Tan pronto estas haciendo una cosa como al minuto siguiente aquello que hacías ya no tiene sentido…ningún valor. Y eso hace que te cuestiones Todo, absolutamente TODO, lo que haces. Desde que te levantas por la mañana hasta que te acuestas por la noche, cuando los ojos ya no te dan para mas y están pidiendo a gritos que dejes de hacer cosas o no podrán abrirse al día siguiente. Y entonces todo son dudas y preguntas que te dan dolor de cabeza…

¿qué comes?¿y por qué comes eso y no otra cosa?¿Por qué te vistes como te vistes?¿o por qué te peinas así?¿usas maquillaje?¿por qué?¿por qué sigues un camino en vez de otro?¿qué te entretiene, qué te hace feliz?¿qué te produce dolor de cabeza, malas pasadas y te hace llorar?¿Y por que?…Así todo el día. De pronto una mañana llegas a clase y descubres que de todo lo que has escrito no entiendes ni la mitad. Esto no se debe a que estudies en un idioma que no es tu lengua materna, o que sean las 9 de la mañana y hayas dormido de asco, no. No entiendes los conceptos, las situaciones y las circunstancias, ni el por que de ellas…Ni mucho menos por que diantres estas estudiando eso. Así que corres a la oficina de la facultad a cambiar de asignatura…Y te apuntas a algo que normalmente no seria tu materia y que, ¡OH, SORPRESA!, tras la primera clase descubres que es bastante interesante…(no como para dedicar el resto de tu vida a ello, pero al menos mejor que la otra)…Y entonces te preguntas…¿Qué me ocurre?

Y lo siguiente que harás sera decidir que la disertación en la que tanto trabajo ya habías puesto no te interesa, o al menos no de ese modo. Que hay otros mundos por explorar que parecen mas fascinantes y mas manejables…Pero no sabes que hacer, ni por que…¿No os ha pasado nunca?

Si, es desastroso. Te hace sentir fatal, inseguro e indeciso, e incluso que estas tomando decisiones erróneas…Te hace llorar y lamentarse…

No obstante…¡ah, no esta todo perdido!Descubres que no eres el único, y que hay mas como tu, pero que no tienen la capacidad de decir que no, y sufren en silencio haciendo algo que ni entienden ni quieren hacer. Pero con tu lamento les has movido a tomar una decisión que, por cierto, va a hacer que estén mas a gusto consigo mismos y puedan volver a disfrutar de las cosas que hacen sin demorarse en pensamientos enturbiados por embriaguez dubitativa. Y te sientes mejor, hacer algo por los demás siempre esta bien, sobre todo si esa misma acción te reconforta.

Aun así es aconsejable acudir a una fuente de sabiduría y experiencia mayor. Este ser va a decirte que en realidad no estas haciendo nada mal, que es normal cuestionarse las cosas y sufrir cambios en expectativas y gustos. Y que, incluso, es posible que gracias a ellos estés en el camino adecuado. Y todo porque tienes un sujeto R. en tu vida. ¡Gracias!

Amigos, compren un sujeto R., les puedo asegurar que solo traen felicidad y cariño.

Ergo hoy, por todos los sujetos R. y aquellos que han sido liberados de las constricciones arcanas de la saturante sabiduría…

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…And if you have the courage…Go and Sue Me…

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…Parece que mi frente reivindicador-liberador no va tan mal…¿no?

<<Lilly…Looking towards new horizons>>